An update on my life and my blogging…
You may have noticed things have been a bit quiet on here recently, and I’m afraid it is something that is going to continue.
There are several reasons for this, and I wanted to explain just what’s going on.
The past four months or so have been challenging. I was diagnosed with Adenomyosis, which is a condition where the Endometrium (the lining of the womb) grows inside the muscle wall of the uterus.
Unfortunately, the diagnosis has come at a point when it’s already causing such severe pain that a hysterectomy is definitely in my near future. It is only being put off because of mine and my partner’s desire to have children.
I am luckily managing much better than when I was first diagnosed, which is in a huge part down to the Oska Pulse dramatically reducing my pain.
I was in so much pain previously that I couldn’t see myself being able to manage long enough to try for children. I thought the hysterectomy was going to be forced on me by my body.
Anyway, while that has improved, I also recently had a general flare of fatigue. I know a lot of us chronically ill folk found the change in weather hard.
I seem to be coming out of that but it did force me to stop blogging and it made me realise that for a long time I have been pushing myself way too hard in order to get a blog out every two weeks.
I had forgotten to put my health first. So, this is the first reason I have taken a step back from the blog and will continue to do so.
On a happier note, I got engaged recently. While we are having a fairly low-key wedding, for me, planning a wedding is going to use up a lot of my spare energy. I’ve already found myself awake at night stressing about the silliest of things.
I’m going to have to learn how to manage stress again as I’ve managed to make my life fairly stress-free (other than applying for Benefits and getting diagnosed with things that force stressful decisions on me!).
So, as you can imagine, ill be focusing a lot of my energy on the wedding.
Then after that? Trying for children when I have a body that is likely to make it difficult (so more stress!) and having to go through the hell of having periods again to do so will be taking up my energy. I’m waiting till after the wedding next summer to stop my pill as I’m not expecting good things from being off it.
And if things do go to plan, life will get a lot busier from then on!
You may remember in “Chronic Illness and the loss of self” I told you I am writing a novel. I used the present tense there, but actually, I haven’t touched the thing for most of the last year.
I have, as I said above, been pushing myself too hard on the blog and it has left no energy for my novel. So, in a shift of priorities, I’m going to put my energy back on slowly writing the novel.
But all is not lost! While it will be particularly quiet on here until I get married next summer, I do hope to still occasionally blog. It just won’t be very frequently and I definitely won’t be holding myself to arbitrary deadlines anymore.
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Thank you, everyone, for all the support you have given me. It has meant a lot to me and made me feel like a useful human being, which can be hard when you are too ill to work.
I am not gone, I am merely off living my life a bit more.
Lots of love,
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